Friday, December 3, 2010

Laid to Rest

I dreamed I was aboard a giant military ship in Japan. It was during the day and the ship was docked. Big, loud waves shot water up over the ship and on the deck and created a cold, misty atmosphere. The ship was revealed to be a Japanese ship and I was standing next to the Japanese emperor. US jets flew overhead as if to say, "We got you guys." The emperor conceded and said something about the US military being strong. We walked off the ship and onto the dock. The dock was just a large concrete platform that was attached to a brand new building under construction. There was a high drop-off without guard rails into an area that had a concession stand. The building was part of a new baseball field. To my left there was a long flight of stairs with a handrail attached to the concrete wall. Instead of walking down them like a normal person, I jumped up onto a ledge and walked down the handrail. I was testing how far I could balance on them before falling.



To play the game Battleship in your dream, signifies the "hit or miss" approach you have to life. You need to be more tactical or deliberate in your decision making. Do not leave it to chance.

To see a foreigner in your dream, represents an aspect of yourself that is unfamiliar or strange to you. You may be neglecting or ignoring some important feelings or talents.

Fighter Jet:
To see or dream that you are in a fighter jet, indicates that you are involved in some fast pace project. To see a jet flying overhead in your dream, signifies speed, pride or power.

To see construction in your dream, signifies a new surge of energy, growth, ambition and renewed confidence. It may also represent the rebuilding of your own life. To dream that a building is under construction, suggests that you need to work on some aspect of yourself and better your mind or body.

To dream that you are on a baseball field, indicates that you need to pay attention to opportunities that are coming your way. To see a baseball field under construction, refers to unresolved sexual issues.

To dream that you are holding on to a railing, suggests that you are desperately holding out for a chance to obtain the object of your affection.

Balance Beam:
To dream that you are walking on a balance beam, indicates that there is a situation that requires your focus and full attention. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for the various aspects that you are trying to balance in your life.

Recently, my family and I laid to rest my Granddaddy Henry. He was a fighter in more ways than one. He served in WWII, fought at Normandy Beach, and lead a platoon. I didn't know him that well because of his condition, but I learned a lot about the kind of man he was at the funeral. He continued to fight after multiple injuries, he fixed a transmission in the middle of the night while his daughters slept in the car on the way to Florida, he never hesitated to help anyone he could, he was one of the hardest working men around.

It was kind of shocking to wake up and remember being on a Japanese battleship. It was as if to say, "you're the enemy. You're nothing like your granddad." It's as if my subconscious is saying that it knows every detail about me and is saying I should take a look at myself and know where I come from and who I'm not. And being in a foreign land with the enemy, could mean that I'm neglecting in myself the qualities that my granddad and I share.

My dream is also saying the I need to be more tactical in my decision-making. It's a quality that is overridden by intuition and empathy in my personality type. I need to learn other methods. The construction in the dream is pretty clear on the meaning. That my future is always under construction. I think my decision to balance down the handrail is a reflection of how non-conventional I am in so many ways.

Ultimately, this dream is a reminder of where I come from and maybe how to approach life. We buried my Granddad. We'll see him again someday. I need to lay to rest all of the aspects about me that I hate. And I hope I never see them again. I know that's what I'm doing. I'm pushing the selfishness away and getting out there. And releasing the past. I recently helped some friends paint their new house. I would have stayed longer if it hadn't been for plans that night. It didn't feel like work. I was happy to help. And if it weren't for all the physical pain I had today, I would have been there helping them move today. But... I bet Henry would have been there regardless of the pain.

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