Tuesday, November 23, 2010


I had a dream that I was outside of a Taco Bell with my cousin. It was dark outside. He walked in to get food while I stood outside the car. I got a phone call from my friend B, gloating about being at work before I was. I thought I was late. The clock on my car said 9:50. He said I wasn't late and that it was actually 7 something. I looked at my phone to confirm. He was right and I was relieved.



To see friends in your dream, signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend, indicates positive news.

To dream that you are late, signifies your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity. You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances. Additionally, you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions about your future. Time is running out and you no longer have time to accomplish all the things you want. Alternatively, being late in your dream could be telling you that it is better late than never.

This dream to me represents my static spiritual state. How did I come up with that? Well it's about a quality that this friend has in my waking life. He represents devotion to his faith and is more spiritually mature than I feel I am. The fact that I thought I was late tells me that I have this fear that it's too late for me and that I'll always feel lost.. and have that guilt feeling you get when you're really late for work and you get chewed out by your boss. Me, weak in faith.

What I can't stand is the people that make it seem like it's all puppy dogs, rainbows and praise all the time. The ones that seem fake and delusional. What some fear to show or speak about is the intense struggle to stay on the right path. The constant fight inside just to simply have faith that everything will work out, that we can overcome ourselves, and be something meaningful. Red is one of my favorite bands because their music is so hard and real and they truly show the contrast of our Innocence and Instinct.

What gives me hope is reminders like the one in my dream.. That it's actually not too late. We just have to overcome our stubborn selves.

"Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around,
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late..."

"Never Too Late"
Three Days Grace

It's funny... I woke up realizing that I was actually late to work.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Floating on the Line Between a Dream and Reality

Quite a few years ago, when I was much younger, I took a trip to Virginia Beach with my dad. We went deep sea fishing on a large boat. On the ride back from the deep, I fell asleep on a bench on the boat. I dreamed I was watching a Parasailor- someone flying in the sky on a parachute attached to a moving boat. The dream didn't last long before I opened my eyes. On the boat, I could hear people talking about Parasailing. I sat up and looked around. I saw an actual boat with someone Parasailing!

I'm not sure what these kinds of dreams are called. They're not quite prophetic or precognition dreams. More like unconscious wiretapping into the conscious world and putting it together in images in the unconscious world. Pretty freaking cool. This has happened to me before. Our brainwaves speed up during REM sleep when we dream. So it's possible to feel like hours have gone by in a dream transposed from something you heard a few seconds or even a fraction of a second before awakening. I would love to hear about your experience with this kind of dream.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

To New Heights

I was in a foreign country with a tropical climate. The natives there had me and another involved in some sort of initiation or rite of passage. I was to climb this big tree/rock/tower structure while balancing a stack of long, thin rocks on my head, held together with twine. So I carefully climbed this structure with one hand while the other held on to the string to keep the rocks secured tightly. I focused on keeping my head upright and the string tight so they wouldn't fall. I finally made it to the top platform of the tower.

I was congratulated by the natives and then they sang me their national anthem. The view was incredible from the top. This tower was on the beach and was facing west towards the ocean. The setting sun lit up the sky with oranges, pinks, and reds. On the beach, there was a carnival; and just beyond, a railroad went from north to south on the sand. At the top, I had my picture taken with my sisters and brother in law.


Foreign Land:

To dream that you are in a foreign land, represents change in your life. Consider how you feel about the surrounding. If you are afraid or lost, then it indicates that you are not ready for the change. You are not willing to leave the past behind. If you are excited or happy in this unknown place, then it suggests that you are ready for change.

To dream of an initiation, indicates that you are pursuing a new path or goal. You are making a career change or getting a promotion.

To dream that you are climbing up something (ladder, rope, etc.), signifies that you are trying to or you have overcome a great struggle. It also suggests that your goals are finally within reach. Climbing also means that you have risen to a level of prominence within the social or economic sphere.

To dream that you lose your balance, suggests that you are having difficulty weighing your options and choices in some situation.

To see a rock in your dream, symbolizes strength, permanence, stability and integrity, as conveyed in the common phrase "as solid as a rock". The dream may also indicate that you are making a commitment to a relationship or that you are contemplating some changes in your life that will lay the groundwork for a more solid foundation. Alternatively, a rock represents stubbornness, disharmony and unhappiness.

Rock Climbing:
To dream that you are rock climbing, symbolizes your struggle, determination and ambition. You are not any letting obstacles get in the way of your goal. Additionally, the dream indicates that you have an edge over others.

To see a tower in your dream, signifies high hopes and aspirations. If you are looking down from a tower, then it indicates that you have a perceived superiority over others. Your ego is inflated.
To dream that you are climbing a tower, denotes your quest for spirituality and unconscious ideas that may be surfacing.

To dream of a celebration, represents your achievement toward a higher level of growth. This may also be a self-congratulatory dream for the goals you have achieved and for the recognition you have gained. You may also be honoring some victory, success, or accomplishment. Alternatively, to dream of a celebration, symbolizes freedom and emotional release. Celebration dreams are common for those who anticipate an upcoming turning point or event in their waking life.

To see an ocean in your dream, represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. You have a positive outlook in life and are not limited by anything. If you are sailing across the ocean, then it signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage. If the ocean is rough, then the dream represents some emotional turmoil. You are doing your best to handle life's ups and downs.

To see a railroad in your dream, indicates that you have laid out a set track toward achieving your goals. Your progress will be slow but steady. You are well disciplined and secure in your life. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you may be too linear and rigid in your thinking. Sometimes you need to go off track and explore other possibilities.

I found this dream pretty bizarre upon wakening but the interpretation is pretty simple and beautiful after reflection. I felt fairly confident in this foreign land and was ready for the initiation. The initiation and the climbing in the dream represents my struggle or undertaking of a new career path, a new future I'm writing for myself. The rocks simply represent a burden. The fact that I balanced them means I can handle whatever may come. That I can handle the balancing act of strength/stability vs. disharmony/stubbornness and still get to where I need to be.

I don't feel like I have a sense of superiority over others. Though what is worse: Feeling superior or inferior of others? Lack of confidence can be deadly and if I wasn't confident, I may have dropped the rocks or have fallen while climbing that tower. I felt a strong sense of community with the natives welcoming me into their land with their singing of their national anthem. And sharing this experience with my sisters and brother in law. Maybe it means I'll feel less alien in where I go. It's important to feel a part of something or a group of people but it's equally important to be yourself and be confident.

I'm not sure the significance of the railroad but what came to mind is the house being built upon sand parable.["But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash." Mathew 7:26-27] If a railroad represents a slow and steady path towards achieving goals, does it mean the path may sink in the sand at some point and everything will come crashing down? That it's not stable? Well.. nothing's stable and my mind tends to explore possibilities. So I chose not to focus on failure when success and beauty were in front of my eyes.

It kind of reminded me of 'Submerged' in that it took place on a beach with the symbol of water, yet this time it was saying that I conquered the flood and the tower. It's quite a refreshing and reassuring dream. It truly was self-congratulatory. That success is within my reach. It's saying I should keep this confidence and move forward... and enjoy the view.

Friday, November 12, 2010


Another apocalyptic dream... This took place at the 'end' of the Earth. Most of the Earth was flooded. I was standing on an Egyptian structure on a new beach-front. It wasn't a pyramid. It was a beautiful sunny day but the oceans were rapidly rising and water was slowly making its way towards the structure and to drown the rest of the Earth. A few of us remained inside this alcove talking about what was happening. A man who seemed very wise knew what was going on. He said the whole Earth will drown and we would all die. Fear sunk in at the thought of inevitable death. I wasn't ready for this shit. I was afraid of dying. He said that the waters would stop rising once the angel's tomb was submerged. I stood there confused and looked to my right. Against the wall stood a sarcophagus. It was in the shape of an angel.. wings and everything. At this point the water was just below our feet. We grabbed the sarcophagus and threw it towards the water. It bounced off the concrete and opened up for a split second and then closed. The angel lay inside with his arms crossed. He was wearing arm bands. He was very tall and very muscular, like a warrior, unlike a stereotypical angel. He floated out into the water and then I woke up.



To dream of the apocalypse, signifies an emotional and dramatic change taken place within. The dream may also indicate the end of one kind of lifestyle and the beginning of another.

To dream of Egypt, indicates the roots and core of your own emotions and spirituality. It suggests of a time in life where things may have been simpler.

To see the beach in your dream, symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual.

To dream that you are on the beach and looking out toward the ocean, indicates unknown and major changes that are occurring in your life. Consider the state of the ocean, whether it is calm, pleasant, forbidding, etc.

To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tensions. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion. Still another interpretation could be your desire to wipe everything clean and make a fresh new start. To see a gentle flood in your dream, indicates that your worries over a certain matter will soon be swept away.

To dream that you feel fear, indicates that your achievements will not be as successful as you had anticipated. You are experiencing anxieties in various aspects of your life. The key to overcoming your fear is to discuss them and deal with them openly.

To see tombs in your dream, signify aspects of yourself which you have kept hidden and buried away.

To see angels in your dream, symbolize goodness, purity, protection, comfort and consolation. Pay careful attention to the message that the angels are trying to convey. These messages serve as a guide toward greater fulfillment and happiness. Alternatively, it signifies an unusual disturbance in your soul. Angels may appear in your dream as a result of your wicked and mean-hearted activities.

To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To dream that water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.

The fear of the inevitable was the main theme in this dream. The fear I had was an indication that I'm not fully prepared for something in my waking life. I'm about to go back to school. I'm waiting to register for classes. I feel I'm prepared but there may be other things I'm repressing. Bad habits, unwise spending, etc. Even though the angel in my dream was dead, I believe he represented a sacrifice. That if I want to avoid the fear and feeling of being overwhelmed by the coming flood, I need to step up and make a few sacrifices. I totally agree with my subconscious. I've been having a lot of apocalyptic dreams lately, which means I'm on the brink of another big life change. And it's true. I am. And this dream ultimately is a reflection that I still have work to do if I am to survive the changes. The old, lazy me has to be killed off so I can become the strong individual I'm meant to be.

Further, the dead angel may represent my lost innocence and purity. But all hope is not lost. I have to forgive myself of the past and just.. let it go. Let the past sink in the rising waters so that when this change comes, I will stay afloat and not go down with it. The waters will wash away the old sins, pain, and negativity and I'll have a fresh start.

♫ Give away the stone..
Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
Give away the stone..
Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.

Let go... ♫

"The Grudge"