Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Pleased to Meet You

A couple of nights ago, I dreamed I snuck into a Chevelle meet and greet. Chevelle is one of my favorite bands and they're a band I've seen the most in concert (about 5 times). It's no wonder my subconscious used them in a beautiful, shameless metaphor. It took place on the 4th story of a new, trendy building in Nashville. I remember sneaking in and falling in line to go into a room to meet them. There was lots of glass in the building. Outside, I saw a bunch of skateboarders.


To see a band or play with a band in your dream, represents a sense of community and belonging. The dream may also be a pun on banding together and need for cooperation/unity.

To dream that you are deceiving someone, suggests that you are lying to yourself that everything is okay when in reality it is not. You are trying to cover up some mistake or some lie. The deceit is manifesting itself into your dream and eating away at your conscious.

To see or ride a skateboard in your dream, indicates that you have the gift of making any difficult situation look easy. You carry yourself with style, grace and composure in the hardest of situations. Alternatively, the dream signifies your free and fun-loving side.

I had a really awesome time with a friend that I haven't seen in two years. It couldn't get much better than a perfect 70 degree sunny day on the beach, a long walk, and the best sushi I've ever had. It was awesome.

But later on, I didn't feel quite like myself. It's whenever I'm around a lot of people I don't know. Her friends I just met. It was a cool scene. Not unlike parties I've been to or would throw with my friends. Loud music, alcohol, bonfires, inside jokes, your best friends. Sometimes I can adapt and be myself around people I don't know. Other times, I feel like I shouldn't be there. Like I'm sneaking into the Chevelle meet and greet in my dream. Not supposed to be there, but going anyway to see what happens.

Needless to say, I was being quite introverted around a larger group and I just wanted to spend more time with her or a smaller group. And I guess I wasn't being myself. I didn't really talk much. I felt like an outcast amidst a tight-knit group of central Florida friends. Sometimes I hate being an introvert. Maybe the skateboarders I saw in my dream symbolize my past roots. Who I used to be that I miss sometimes. Maybe I should be out there with them.

I just don't know where I belong. I've become very picky with friends and have a hard time relating to a lot of people. This needs to change. Make me whole.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Laid to Rest

I dreamed I was aboard a giant military ship in Japan. It was during the day and the ship was docked. Big, loud waves shot water up over the ship and on the deck and created a cold, misty atmosphere. The ship was revealed to be a Japanese ship and I was standing next to the Japanese emperor. US jets flew overhead as if to say, "We got you guys." The emperor conceded and said something about the US military being strong. We walked off the ship and onto the dock. The dock was just a large concrete platform that was attached to a brand new building under construction. There was a high drop-off without guard rails into an area that had a concession stand. The building was part of a new baseball field. To my left there was a long flight of stairs with a handrail attached to the concrete wall. Instead of walking down them like a normal person, I jumped up onto a ledge and walked down the handrail. I was testing how far I could balance on them before falling.



To play the game Battleship in your dream, signifies the "hit or miss" approach you have to life. You need to be more tactical or deliberate in your decision making. Do not leave it to chance.

To see a foreigner in your dream, represents an aspect of yourself that is unfamiliar or strange to you. You may be neglecting or ignoring some important feelings or talents.

Fighter Jet:
To see or dream that you are in a fighter jet, indicates that you are involved in some fast pace project. To see a jet flying overhead in your dream, signifies speed, pride or power.

To see construction in your dream, signifies a new surge of energy, growth, ambition and renewed confidence. It may also represent the rebuilding of your own life. To dream that a building is under construction, suggests that you need to work on some aspect of yourself and better your mind or body.

To dream that you are on a baseball field, indicates that you need to pay attention to opportunities that are coming your way. To see a baseball field under construction, refers to unresolved sexual issues.

To dream that you are holding on to a railing, suggests that you are desperately holding out for a chance to obtain the object of your affection.

Balance Beam:
To dream that you are walking on a balance beam, indicates that there is a situation that requires your focus and full attention. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for the various aspects that you are trying to balance in your life.

Recently, my family and I laid to rest my Granddaddy Henry. He was a fighter in more ways than one. He served in WWII, fought at Normandy Beach, and lead a platoon. I didn't know him that well because of his condition, but I learned a lot about the kind of man he was at the funeral. He continued to fight after multiple injuries, he fixed a transmission in the middle of the night while his daughters slept in the car on the way to Florida, he never hesitated to help anyone he could, he was one of the hardest working men around.

It was kind of shocking to wake up and remember being on a Japanese battleship. It was as if to say, "you're the enemy. You're nothing like your granddad." It's as if my subconscious is saying that it knows every detail about me and is saying I should take a look at myself and know where I come from and who I'm not. And being in a foreign land with the enemy, could mean that I'm neglecting in myself the qualities that my granddad and I share.

My dream is also saying the I need to be more tactical in my decision-making. It's a quality that is overridden by intuition and empathy in my personality type. I need to learn other methods. The construction in the dream is pretty clear on the meaning. That my future is always under construction. I think my decision to balance down the handrail is a reflection of how non-conventional I am in so many ways.

Ultimately, this dream is a reminder of where I come from and maybe how to approach life. We buried my Granddad. We'll see him again someday. I need to lay to rest all of the aspects about me that I hate. And I hope I never see them again. I know that's what I'm doing. I'm pushing the selfishness away and getting out there. And releasing the past. I recently helped some friends paint their new house. I would have stayed longer if it hadn't been for plans that night. It didn't feel like work. I was happy to help. And if it weren't for all the physical pain I had today, I would have been there helping them move today. But... I bet Henry would have been there regardless of the pain.