Monday, September 20, 2010


This dream happened a few months ago. I've just been too scared to write it down until now. It wasn't a scary dream at all.. In fact it was a step towards closure in both my waking mind and my subconscious. And there are some very heavy symbols. One in particular.

So in my dream, I was at someone's wedding. It had to be a family wedding because my dad was there and his friend Charley and a lot of people I recognized. I don't know whose wedding it was in particular. All I know is that I was there at the reception wandering around by myself. Then she was there. My ex. And it was strange. She was there alone too.

I came up and talked to her and we moved away from the crowd and into another area of wherever this place was at. We were talking on the couch and suddenly it got intimate. We moved closer to each other and then.. we kiss. And it wasn't just an 'oh I miss you, it's been so long' kind of kiss. This one felt like a first kiss. As if we had never kissed before until now.. even though we both knew we have. And it was powerful. And then we went outside and walked down the road.

Then, we stopped. And we were holding hands facing each other. I told her how much I loved her and how much it hurt to be away from her for so long. And I told her I would love nothing more than to have her back. Then mysteriously I was holding a ring box. I didn't have this before, I did not plan on this at all. But it was there, as if it materialized in my hand. And I opened it to find that the box was.... empty. And that was the end of the dream.



To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. A wedding reflects your issues about commitment and independence. Alternatively, your wedding dream refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Such dreams are often negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. If you dream that the wedding goes wrong or ends in disaster, then it suggests that you need to address some negativity immediately.

To dream that you are attending a wedding, consider how you feel at the wedding. If you are upset or sad, then it means that you are unhappy about the current status of your life. If you are happy, then you are embracing a new change in your life.

To dream about your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend or ex-husband/wife or that you and your ex got back together again, suggests that something or someone in your current life is bringing out similar feelings you felt during that relationship with your ex. The dream may be a way of alerting you to a similar behavioral patterns in your current relationship. What you learn from that previous relationship, may need to be applied to the present one so that you do no repeat the same mistakes. Alternatively, you may be reflecting on the positive experiences and good times that you shared with your past love.

To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment. To see others kissing in your dream, suggests that you are too involved in someone else's personal lives and relationship. You need to give them some space. If the dream ends just about as you are about to kiss someone, then it indicates that you are unsure of how he or she really feels about you. You are looking for some sort of relationship with this person but you are not sure about how to go about achieving it.

To see or receive a ring in your dream, symbolizes emotional wholeness, continuity, commitments and honor. If the ring is on your finger, then it signifies your commitment to a relationship or to a new endeavor. You are loyal to your ideals, responsibilities, or beliefs.

To dream that you lose a ring or someone has stolen your ring, represents insecurity. You may be losing interest in some relationship or issue.

To dream that you are opening a box, indicates an aspect of yourself that was once hidden is now being revealed. It symbolizes self discovery. Consider your feelings as you open the box. If opening the box fills you will fear, you may be uncovering aspects of yourself that cause you to feel anxious.

This dream haunted me for awhile as I thought about what it meant. And I couldn't get the image of that empty ring box out of my head. I felt content and excited in that dream until that moment.

I mostly felt lonely at that wedding, reflecting my waking feelings of loneliness and bitterness. Then she came around and at first I felt hesitant. But then as we talked, it was as if we reflected on the things we missed about each other. And the kiss is a symbol of affection for each other and that feeling of it being a first kiss, to me feels like a new beginning. A chance for us to start again.

But when that ring box appeared and was empty.. It changed my perspective of the dream. Yes, I've had these feelings and longing for us to be together again. And what I said, I wakingly felt. My love since high school, us back together. But the ring box was empty.. To me signifying an empty promise. That if we were in a position to get back together, the fact is we are two different people than who we were.. when we were together. And that there is no promise that we could ever work out again. Alternatively, opening the empty ring box represents the revealing of my emotional emptiness and insecurity. And because of that.. I no longer have any substance and am no shape to be in a relationship right now. I long for it, but I'm not ready yet.

The dream told me that I should let go and move on. That there is no promise or guarantee that we'll ever be.. again. That it has drained my emotions and is draining ME and who I am. I'm losing substance and if I continue on this path, I'll never be with anyone else again. I have to work to become secure and happy with myself only and be the better person that I'm meant to be. Another step towards closure..

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